Month: June 2015
There are so many thoughts in my head as I start this journey, that I am having trouble concentrating. I am excited to be back in school. I’m worried I have forgotten how to be a student. I wonder if I can do this. Do I even want to do this?
I teach Algebra. It is concrete and black and white like I am. Writing is difficult for me. It is too subjective and personal. I struggle to get words out of my head and onto paper. I never know what to say and it makes me feel awkward. I am a very private person, keeping my innermost thoughts and feelings to myself. Publishing these thoughts causes me great anxiety. But I know that I grow the most when I am uncomfortable. I will be growing A LOT over the next couple years.
At night, in the dark, I wonder why I am returning to school. Am I making a good choice? But then a small voice from the farthest reaches of my mind reassures me. It reminds me that I like challenges, that I love to learn. That everything seems overwhelming at the start. And so it is.